New Beginnings

This time last year I was a bawling mess. All day long....literally. This year was much better. I am still in shock that it is that time already! Going back to school time that is. We had such a fun summer and I hate to see it end already!! I remember when I was a kid our summers seemed so long. The kids now a days are lucky to get 8-9 weeks. I'm just waiting for someone in our area to decide that a "year long" school is ideal and should be implemented. Oh gosh I hope not. How miserable!

Last year I did not walk the kids into school on that first day and looking back, I regret it. BUT, the condition that I was in when I dropped them off would have made me look like a very unstable emotional crazy woman very upset momma. I could not stop crying! I'm guessing it was because it was something new.....new school, new people, new teachers, new friends, new in the fact that my two oldest were not going to be with me all day long....I could go on. I was so worried about Mimi. She was going into it not really knowing anyone. Bud? Eh, he'd be ok because he knew other little boys from baseball and from the kindergarten camp he attended but my little girl worried me. I knew that awkwardness that she was going to be feeling. I knew she was scared and unsure of her surroundings. I prayed for them and for their safety and that they would make at least one good friend. I prayed that God would be with them while they were in the care of strangers their teachers. I called my mom and sister, of course bawling, and asked them to pray for the kids and for me. All I could do was pray....all day. They were in His hands at that point! I couldn't wait for them to get back in the van because I would then know that they were ok and safe and sound. I missed them so much! I was crying when I picked them up too....joyful tears of happiness though! They both rattled off how they had met a new friend and how they had had a good day. It was different for them but good. I hope I never forget that.

David was able to be off today and go with us and I'm so glad! We walked in and dropped them off at their classrooms. I didn't want to let go of them. I just wanted to hold on to them for a tad bit longer. Yes, I'll admit, I was teary eyed! Almost lost it, but I held it together. Especially when we stopped back by Bud's classroom and watched him for a minute as he was coloring and he saw me and blew me a kiss!! What a sweetheart!

There are other moms who bask with delight that it's school time again and are so glad to drop their kids off or practically push their kids out the door and onto a school bus..... that's just not me. And please don't take offense if you are one of those moms. We are all different and have different ways of doing things and we all love our kids. I'm just saying for me, that I truly miss them while they are gone. Don't mistake me now....I don't miss the sibling arguments and things like that, but I miss their little sweet moments and watching and listening to them all playing together. I miss their silliness and laughter. I miss spending time with them. I'm so amazed at how their minds work and the things they come up with. Their innocence is precious to me.

We kept busy today which made the day fly by. I did get a little sad when Boogs said to me twice and once to David that he missed Mimi and Bud. Awwwww!

All in all they had a great day! I'm hoping and praying that the school year is blessed for all of them.

Is it me or does it seem like the days are passing by way too fast? My babies are growing up much too fast! But, I guess time does fly when you are blessed and having fun! I love you babies! :)

Mimi ready for 3rd grade and Bud ready for 1st grade. *sniffle*