Two Times?

Yes, I have actually blogged for a second time this month. It's hard to believe that I used to blog daily. I love to write my thoughts down, but now a days, my thoughts seem to stay in my head more....there's just not much time to write them down.  I mean, I am the mom of 5...... with one needing me more in her life right now than the other four ever did. That's ok though. I want her to always know that I am here for her and that she is always protected and safe in my arms. I want the others to know that as well......and they do and they too understand that she needs me a little bit more than they do. 

I love them all so much and am blessed to have them in my life. They make me smile and laugh even on the hard days. No matter what I'm going through or thinking or over analyzing....they are there with their smiles, laughter, hugs, kisses, silly looks and so on and even if for just a moment....it makes my heart smile.

It's been a hard few months. It has been sweet to see their compassion and their sadness as well. 

Sadly, my grandmother, my dads mom, passed away on Monday, May 11th.  Her health had many ups and downs over the last few years, but when my dad passed away in January....I think that just made her health issues worse. Her heart was sad and her body was so very tired and I think she was just ready to go home.  Because of Marlee's issues the first two years of her life, I didn't get to go visit my grandmother often. When I heard she was not doing well, my sister and I made a quick trip to Georgia to go visit her to let her know we loved her and for her to meet Marlee. David's grandmother passed away right before Marlee was born so she never got to meet her and she had never met Mason either.  David and I regret that we didn't make more time for her to meet Mason so I knew I didn't want that same regret with my grandmother.  Even though it was a quick trip, I'm so glad she got to meet Marlee.  My grandmother was always so proud of her children and grandchildren.....and now her great grand children. She loved us all with her big heart and her sweet "Hey Shuga's".  I will miss that so much.

Yesterday was Memorial Day and honestly, I have to say that it meant more to me yesterday than it ever has before in my life. My dad served in the Army when he was young and he is buried in the Alabama National Cemetery. They had a Memorial Day ceremony yesterday and I knew I didn't want to miss it.  It was a very emotional day for me as I visited his grave. To see the flags displayed on each grave and all the people that showed up for the ceremony was so humbling.  We truly have the freedoms we have because of God first, then the men and women who have given their life for those freedoms.  Thank you to those who have sacrificed their lives for us.




 



My Aunt Susan tending to my dads grave as captured by an Al.com photographer.


(photo creds: Al.com)

Summer is finally here and I welcome the much needed break. Since we moved last November, we don't have a pool to constantly entertain us over the summer but hopefully we will still have just as much fun. Maybe, I'll be able to jot my thoughts down a little bit more.....we will see. 

~A