Anti-Resolution

Well, the name of my blog says it all. I don't like to make New Year's resolutions because unlike some of you out there, I am actually one of the 99% of people that make resolutions and don't tend to keep them for whatever reason: laziness, boredom, making excuses, no motivation and I tend to pick the junkier food over the healthier and the list could go on and on. So instead of making a New Year's resolution list, how about a Life Changing list?

Now I know as soon as I actually type this out, accountability will immediately come in to play. Also the evil one will make sure I falter because he doesn't want victory over anything that is good for us or that will bring us closer to God. But we know who has already won that battle so if I can keep my eye on the prize then I know I will be victorious.

1. Turn to my loving and always forgiving Father more than I do now. Make it a priority. Turn to Him first before my husband, sister, mom, best friends or whoever else will listen. Make sure I take everything to Him including my thoughts, emotions, feelings, actions or whatever else that would take my focus away from Him and onto my pitiful self.

2. Make it more of a priority to read my Bible everyday. As a mom of 3 right now, I wonder where my time goes sometimes....oh wait, laundry, dishes, cleaning, errands etc. Why do I make time for those things but not more time with my Creator? The Savior who died for me so that I could do those things.

3. Spend more time with my babies. I sometimes focus so much on doing my domestic house duties that I often leave them asking me "Why don't you play with us?" SAD! I know and feel convicted and torn at the same time. They will only be little once and each day is passing by and I am missing it all for something that doesn't matter anyway and will eventually fade away.

4. Work on becoming more friendly and open. I really am a shy person and I think that comes across as being snobby or stuck up. I don't feel as though I am better than someone else. On the contrary I am always feeling like the unimportant one in the group. As if I don't have anything important to contribute to the situation. Does that make sense? I think it comes down to self image.

5. Work on the tone of my voice and facial expressions. For example, when we were at my brother's for Christmas, I was asked twice by two different people if I was ok. I really was ok, but apparently my facial expression said otherwise. It had been a very busy and exhausting week and I was extremely tired, but I was ok. Plus, I'm growing a little person so that plays into it some too. Anyway, sometimes my tone isn't what it should be either. I tend to, let's just say "raise" my voice a little too much with my babies and that's something I really need to work on. I don't want them to remember me as always "raising" my voice. Why is my tone much more harsh with my loved ones than with a stranger? Sometimes it really isn't meant to be that way, just comes out that way due to mere frustration, but....no excuses.

6. Finish things that I start. Sometimes I will start a project (ex:cleaning out the kids drawers but not really finishing the job....not packing the clothes up, laundry...ohhh how I hate to fold laundry) and then sometimes leave the project unfinished until I get sick and tired of seeing the unfinished project so I make myself finish. I need to be more assertive in finishing the projects in a timely manner. I can definitely be a procrastinator.

7. Get motivated to exercise. I have a best friend who absolutely loves to exercise and I sometimes think..why? Is it because she really loves to exercise? Is it "me time" or an "out" for her? I don't get it. I don't get those who just love to exercise. Maybe that's my problem. Maybe it's laziness. Not wanting to have to work at something so hard. Because we all know it is soooo easy to pack on the pounds but sooo hard to take them off. It isn't fair and this weight just isn't going to fall off by itself. I will have to work at it and work at it in a hard way. I'm limited to certain things right now because of the pregnancy but I am really going to try and work this extra baggage off after the baby comes. I want to start now by doing little things. Not taking the easy way out. I know it's not pleasing to my Creator for me to be this way and I know it's not that attractive to my hubby either. NOOO he hasn't said anything, but I know he must think it. Our bodies are the temple of the Holy Spirit and should be treated respectfully and honestly, I haven't treated mine with much respect at all. One good thing.....since I have been pregnant I have had absolutely NO desire for fast food such as hamburgers, chicken or anything like that. I have really craved salads or sandwiches from Subway or Firehouse Subs. I do occasionally eat some french fries but the other stuff...gross!! Ewww!

These are some of the things I could think about now, and I'm sure I will be thinking of more. If you don't mind, please keep me in your prayers that I will be able to say (in a year from now) that I was victorious only by the Lord's doing! I know it will take a lot of discipline on my part to accomplish these things, but I know I'm not alone and know that God will help me...if I will be obedient and just take it to Him!