Little things matter

Today was rough and I could tell the evil one was laughing at me. I had to apologize many times today to the ones I love the most and explain that it wasn't them, it was me. Not that this is an excuse, but I think I'm starting to feel the pressure of all that's going on with us and the busy-ness that this time of the year brings. I will be glad when school is over and we can just relax. I will be glad when my baby starts talking and doesn't need speech therapist or special instruction therapist to help communicate with me. I will be glad when things start to slow down and I'm not complaining by any means because I know there are those who don't have anyone or anything in their life to be busy with. For right now though , I feel overwhelmed and I need to step back and get a grip and know that I need to lean on the One who made me. The night has ended better. D and I went to Walmart by ourselves(of course, Dee-deed was watching the babies) and it was nice to quietly walk around and look at stuff and get the things we needed without all the fussing. It was nice to be able to enjoy each other as adults and not parents. It was nice to be able to engage in adult conversation without having to interrupt the other person to say "please be quiet or mommy's talking right now or you're being rude" or whatever .... it was just nice and sometimes it's the little things like that that matter.