Blessed Heart

I wanted to share a couple of little stories about how God is showing me that He is really real. I mean, I know He's real but sometimes I feel like He is so far away. I've always heard the saying that if God seems far away then you are the one that moved because He is always there with arms wide open. And down deep I know that, but there are still those days where I'm thinking, "Ok God, are you there? Do you see my life down here?" "Helloooo, are you paying attention?" .....not in a disrespectful manner I will add. 
I  recently heard a brief testimony from a DJ on a local Christian radio station where she was feeling really alone and was asking God if He was really there? She knew she hadn't been living a life that she should and was at the end of her rope. She had been in the bathroom upstairs and went downstairs to the kitchen table.  Her daughter came up to her a few minutes later and put her tiny little hand on her mom's knee and said "Mommy, you are not alone. God loves you."  The DJ was sorta freaked out and asked her daughter if she had been upstairs and heard her mommy in the bathroom and her daughter said no and that she had been downstairs playing the whole time.  So, she then asked her daughter "Who told you to say that to mommy?" and her daughter replied "God put it in my heart and told me to tell you".   When I heard that I just started crying and I thought "how awesome for God to use a child to simply tell us what He wants us to know about Him. Such simple truth. "  

I was driving down the road and started praying and told God that I wish He would "speak" to me that way so that I would know that I wasn't alone. Which I know I'm not, but I think all of us goes through times when we may be filled with people around us that we know and love but at the same time, still feel alone. Anyway, David had to work last Sunday so I decided to take the kids to the church that we had previously been attending for the last 8 or so years.  We haven't been there in a while because we would like to find a church closer to our home and in our community. But I wanted to go and so I took the kids and dropped them off at their Sunday school classes. Boogs immediately noticed one of his school friends , Emerson and they were so excited to see each other.  They are like best friends.

 I went into the sanctuary and found a seat towards the back and sat down by myself.  The time came for the let's all shake hands, hug and share our germs  "meet and greet" time and I noticed Emerson's parents sitting two pews ahead of me. They turned around and we saw each other and were like "Oh hey girl, how are you? Good , good to see you...etc". I  told her about Boogs being excited to see Emerson in his class. She then looked at me and said "You are such an answer to prayer. " and I kinda thought "Huh" and then she told me that , that morning Emerson had been crying and upset about going to church because none of his school friends were in his class and he really didn't have anyone to play with.  And here we were coming on this particular Sunday after we hadn't been in a long time.  I just knew it was a total God thing and what she told me blessed me so much.  I cried almost the whole rest of the church service just thinking about how God really does care about us and cares about the cares of our heart, even the heart of a child. I was so blessed by that.

Then, the other night, David was on the phone with someone from work and Pudgie needed a diaper change so I sat on the floor in front of David and was changing his diaper.  I wasn't really talking....I was just listening to David talk to his co-worker and I heard Pudgie start saying "Hi" and he was waving.  I looked down at him and he was staring up towards the ceiling and kept saying "Hi" and was kinda jibbering like he was talking. I kept on with the diaper change and when I was about finished, Pudgie then started saying "Bye-bye" and was actually waving good bye....again looking up towards the ceiling. His eyes never came off of the ceiling until I was done. I was looking at him and asking who he was talking to and he was pointing to the ceiling and doing his baby talk.  I just thought Wow.  A few minutes later , he was standing in front of David at the couch and I looked at him and said "Pudgie, where's Jesus?"  He then raised his arm and pointed his little finger up towards heaven and actually looked up towards heaven when he did that.  And I have asked him several times since then "where's Jesus?" and every time he points up and looks up.  I have to tell you that we have never asked him that before or pointed upwards and said Jesus lives up there or anything like that.  We have never done that so I know and I truly believe that He was seeing and talking to Jesus.  Doesn't that make your heart full?

Of course,  my first thoughts were "Oh gosh, somethings going to happen to me or Pudgie and this is God's way of letting me know that He is there."  Isn't it terrible that the worst is what I automatically thought?   Anyway, I have been so blessed and amazed at that. I know, some people might dismiss that story as "Oh, he's heard that somewhere else" or something excuse like that......but I'm telling you, it's not just some story. He is real and loves us and He cares about us and He wants to know us on a personal level.  If he knows when a sparrow falls, He surely knows and cares about each of us.

I just wanted to share how God cares about revealing Himself to us sometimes when we doubt our faith or doubt if He really is there and listening. He is!  He wants that personal relationship with us.....that's what it's about.....a relationship, not a religion.  He loves me and He loves you and He wants us to trust Him.

Loves,

:)